Breaking the Bond

I am so incredibly, undeniably, humbly excited to actually have my own movie! It's one thing to have become a Raging Stallion Exclusive, but to have a movie named after me is as big as my hole... At the end of the scenes. I still snap back after an hour! Lol! So let's break this down! 

Shawn Wolfe; never met the guy, but we had a damn good time in this scene. This was basically a fisting narrative scene. We not only connected with each other, but with the audience as well. We wanted to involve you and talk to you while he was scavenging through the deep abyss of my ass. This was a sexy, fun scene that we hope you all enjoy and can feel a part of. 

Not much to say about Andrew Stark other than GIGGITY! The picture above was most likely taken while we weren't paying attention to the camera. You can definitely sense a great connection (other than his fist in my butt) in this scene, despite this being our first time meeting. Hot guy, great guy and I hope to work with him again soon!

Boomer! Boomer! BOOMer!! Wanna talk about a wet dream come true? Just watch this scene and you'll see it's like the Disney of this fisting feature! I fucking love this guy! Most know him for his Titan sized schlong (which feels amazing, don't get me wrong) but he knows how to use his other perfectly sized limbs to please a willing hole. This scene captures not only great fisting, but a fire between two close friends, now closer! During the photos, we were each sitting on the side fighting to hold ourselves back. And when it came time for breaks... There weren't any!

Lastly, I have to say a BIG thank you to Chris Ward! This movie was such an honor to make. It was also an honor to be under your direction. You are an amazing artist and director. You made shooting this so incredibly easy and comfortable. I can't wait till we work together again. So BIG SHOUT OUT to you, the models and the entire production crew who worked on this film! Thank you so much with all the love in the world!

Exclusive!

*Big ol' sigh of relief* I finally did it! That's how being a Raging Stallion/ Falcon exclusive makes me feel. I've always said that porn has been like a fitness journey for me. It make have taken 4 years to finally figure out what worked, but with some help I finally got it!

If you ask me why I wanted to get into this industry, I'd give one of two answers. First would be because I wanted to have another thing to look back and say I did for a good few rockin' years. The second is because I wanted to be accepted among the beautiful men of America. It always quite intimidating when working next to somebody like David Benjamin or Race Cooper or Boomer Banks. Seriously! These are hard acts to follow! Some guys may have started the business after me but I'm still just a kid compare to them (I promise this was not an age joke! And I love you!) So body and performance-wise, it's challenging for this dude from Little Rock... Ish... I been getting the hang of it...

But of course, with great gay body comes great...... money.... or drugs...... sometimes sex.... Sti's.... But hey who's judging as long as you keep that 6 pack good enough for camera? Sadly, that's just about how it can be in the sex industry. So you gotta find your special buddy who keeps you on the right path. Doesn't have to be a boyfriend/girlfriend, just a friend. I really prefer gym buddies but not a lot of people I know go to 24 hour. Above all else in the industry, keep your body up. Evolve and learn what's gonna work for you now than years ago. Leo Forte really taught me a ton after moving here, before as well. He taught me to look at myself differently, kept grabbing my "passion grips" till I worked them off and even had me eat a whole cheesecake on camera. Could I have stopped? Yes. Did I want to? No!! It's not often you're granted New York style cheesecake after going with no bread, alcohol, and most dairy. But I owe a lot of my success at Raging to him. He got me in the door with them by calling me to fill in for a cam show. We made some good movies together since then. But we go to different gyms. So the point of this paragraph, fitness buddies and diet!

So yeah it's been great over these past years with all the friends I've made and the help I've received in getting as far as I have. I love my life. It's because of the people in it. You're all amazing and I'll never forget these years and the years ahead in this industry and life.

Answering the BIG QUESTION!

So there have been many people online, in person, or during my cam shows asking me "would you ever go bareback on camera?" It is a question that all gay stars face at one point in their career. It is a huge decision to be a part of the "unsafe" side of gay porn. The question for myself has been "Am I a hypocrite by not doing it?" 

Let's all face it the fact that at one point, or many points, in time, we have ducked or been fucked without a condom. And don't you fucking DARE say you didn't enjoy it. Speaking of what happens off camera, I've had plenty of times in which I've gone online looking for a crazy wild condomless time. Most of the time, I just jack off at the pics and sign off and temptation is gone. But there are still the times in which I've not been as strong against the temptation. I've done things that people may or may not have guessed at houses, hotels or bath houses. I've come back home ashamed of some of these times and scared shitless for the next 3 months. I've been beyond blessed to have come out fine so far. However I'm still in a window time and yes, I'm nervous.

Now let's talk about on camera. I have never done a bareback scene in my 3.5 years of being in porn. I've seen many studios either open the option or completely change to bareback. It is a very popular market. On set, the models are not stupid enough to ever purposely go onto a bareback set either untested or untreated. Gay porn has always been like a brotherhood to me and to do that would be the upmost disrespect or irresponsible action anybody could do. If somebody was to do that, most likely he'd be blacklisted, or at least I hope he would be. Nevertheless, we all take care of each other and make sure all precautions are taken into consideration.

Being a condom only actor raises a little bit of pressure, especially with those certain off camera times. I see people I've talked to and work with do a scene or two bareback and to be honest, I'm jealous as fuck! Who hasn't watched Antonio Biaggi and and wished he'd use his cum as fisting lube for your ass? In my experience, I feel my sexual tension for that kind of play rise. If I can't do it on set, then I'll either angrily masturbate to such a thought or so seek it out anywhere I can find it. That is tension I could release in a more controlled professional environment, where we all know each other and take care of each other.

So now, back to the question from before, would I ever do bareback porn? I'll answer by asking you, my friends, fans and agent, who's hands do you trust me in? Do you trust the professionals at the studios? Or do you trust the partiers online or at sex clubs? To give you a simple answer, I just don't know. I am an entertainer. I do my job for you and put you to bed at night. Please give me your insight on where I should take my career starting 2014 after I'm done with this break. Until then, I'll keep on doing what I am doing for now. 

Thank you all and much love!!

Getting started in PORN

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I'm back home!

I'm so incredibly happy to be home!! I'm able to go to my old gym and clime Pinnacle mountain again. I'm loving it all! I'm seeing old friends and trying to make some new ones. One of my favorite things do to around here is scout for new models.  I plan on trying to find many and even bought an HD camera and wanna work on my camera skills here at home and maybe start doing a couple films on my own. Got some time on my hands so why not? 

I have also decided to join the sisters of perpetual indulgence. The Arkansas branch is just getting started and we are going to be known as the diamond state sisters. I've also starting working with local drag talent, Chichi Valdez. She is really awesome and I live working with her so much!! Definitely at new friend. 

Along with this, I'm also hearing a lot of stories of guys my age or younger dying early. The stories behind these deaths are stupid. I do know there are worse stories out there, but these still bother me because they're at home and could have been so preventable. 

The first of these stories is the oldest. About 5 years go, an acquaintance, Joey, had died in a car accident. He, from what I was told, had mixed multiple bars of Xanax and drank a bunch of beer and went out driving. He wasn't even 20.

I was told a story from 6 months or so ago in which a high school football player from somewhere north of me hung himself during erotic asphyxiation. It happens, but one wouldn't expect someone that young to do it. There's precautions to every fetish, in which in some cases can lead to death if not taken.

Most recent was a guy I went to school with, Sam. He died last week because the girl he was cheating on his wife with grabbed the wheel of his car. He wrecked and the steering wheel crushed his chest. She had the nerve to go to his funeral. He was 25.

My last story involves a 17 year old who I worked with today at Taco Bell named Nathan. Yes, I'm working there for some extra financial security till my next shoot comes along. Anyway, the entire time he was there, he walked around with heavy weights on his shoulders. He's really small and so cute. He didn't quite finish high school and I fear he's on a path of depression and self hate and destruction. Or maybe just not caring. He turns 18 in December. He stayed quiet and kept his head down. It's not even the fact that he's cute that makes me want to get closer to him. Something is telling me to help this boy. Something is telling me to care for him . Something about him breaks my heart. 

All of these deaths were the result of lacking one thing, discipline. The boy up north from me (never got a name) simply needed somebody to show him the correct precautions to or had somebody with which to share such a dangerous fetish. When caught cheating, Sam's wife could possibly have used pain, in bdsm form, to make him sorry. I'm a bit ashamed to say, but I don't have too much room to speak there. I wasn't the best boyfriend to a wonderful and deserving man and will take this chance to make it known to the world that I'm sorry. I'm a better person than that. And as for guys like Joey, I'd rather have them worried about their next porn scene than their next high or buzz. 

Like I said earlier, I got my own HD camera. And I ditto the last thing I said about Joey and guys like him. I want to give them more to look forward to. For people who need fetish discipline here, I've got the perfect guys to teach them everything they need to know. Once done properly, I would love to capture it. I would love to start capturing a lot of my own content. I would like to do this in order to keep guys and girls busy and something more exciting to look forward to. Looking forward to become models for this art form. 

I would like to start raising some funds to help out with Sam's family. I would also like to raise some funds to help Nathan, Who is the guy that I work with at Taco Bell that walks around with the weight of the world on his shoulders. I cannot stand to see someone who is so young and so full of potential just walk around with such little hope for his life.

 It is not my obligation to help these people that I barely know but it would still mean a lot to me if I could do something for them. Please help me show condolences for the grieving family of Sam Kitchell. And also please help me to help other kids and young men and women my age, possibly younger, have hope of something in life that they could surely look forward to more than their next high. All I'm asking for is just a dollar or two from each of my Twitter followers. That alone would help so much with a grieving family or a hopeless young teen. Anything that is left over after helping these young women and men and this family get on the right track will go to the Arkansas AIDS foundation. 

For the young men and women that I am trying to support, your money will simply go towards supplements and proteins from GNC that they can use to help really Kickstart their fitness goals, as well as a gym membership. Some of your funds may also go towards being able to pay those who agreed to allow me to shoot them and be my models for whatever work I have coming up. They will also go towards paying someone to edit the videos that I shoot, as well as any fees for getting the website up and running. But the first and foremost importances are Sam's family and the people that I am trying to help have a new hope their lives. 

So if you choose to donate please send the money to my PayPal accounts. My email address is BBondsXXX@yahoo.com. One dollar is all that I ask from each of you. So if you feel this is a cause to believe in, please donate. You could be helping a family. You could be helping a teen or young adult get a second wind when they've lost hope. And you will be helping Arkansas AIDS foundation.

Thank you so much for reading this and I pray you help us out here in the diamond state.

Folsom Street Fair

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Ft. Lauderdale Pride

It's pride weekend here in Ft. Lauderdale and the party is just happening right down from my house. Wilton Dr. is completely shut down and there are gay boys and girls everywhere!!

I'll have to admit, I'm kind of a bore but I'm more of an observer now days. But every now and then I like to participate in wild and crazy festivities. For example, tonight, Met a black man with a large snake! He even let me hold it for a while!! You could say that I was more than eager to hold it! 

Well, other than holding a cute black man's snake, there was some pretty damn good southwestern egg rolls which didn't survive long enough for a picture. I am however still a little hungry and there's a lot of food tents around 

So if you're not at Ft. Lauderdale pride, you should be there. At least go check it out. That's if you can find parking!